Today was a hard day: Being mommy is tough

Today was a tough day. I had a little crying sesh. I realize I am WAY TOO HARD ON MYSELF.

I'm sure some of you can relate.

I don't have to be a martyr, just a mommy.

But somehow I think that the house must be spotless, baby laughing, and a healthy organic meal on the table every night.

Who am I kidding?! Myself obviously!!

Sometimes I forget to ask for help.


I think that if I ask for help I show my weakness and therefore I am now on the table to be judged. I know that's not really the case.

I've totally exhausted myself. I guess the holidays took more toll on my spirit than my weight ;).

I missed being around my mommy friends and unfortunately once I was around them, I failed to show kindness through my pain.

It's so humbling to hear people forgive you when you feel undeserving.

I feel like I have to be the BEST at everything! I Hate this about me. I HATE That I compare myself to everyone. Just when you think you are doing great, BAM, you walk into a wall and get a reality check.

I need to just give myself a break. I need to let go of my perfectionist ways and really let God do the rest. I need to stop trying to be in control.

After writing all this, I already feel better. I am so grateful to have friends that can check ya when your just not yourself.

Tonight our family added another resolution: Don't sweat the small stuff.

So appropriate!! ;)

Thank you for reading and letting me share my heart ;)