Friday, October 26, 2012

Coffee Date

If we were having coffee today, I would probably order an exorbitant amount of coffee. Last night was a doozy. I'm not sure if Little Miss is teething or sick, but she struggled to sleep last night. She also woke up to feed and then started crying. It hurts so much to see her ache. 
Thank goodness she work up with a smile, as always. 
I also had a horrible dream.. HORRIBLE
And of course it was weird.
I will just tell you briefly...
I have left her with my MIL for an hour but I haven't gone longer. 
I dreamt that I had to go to work and she was put in a daycare of some sort.
Going back to work has been on my mind a lot. 
You see I gt my teaching job and then found out I was pregnant the day school began. 
I had always dreamed of being a home school teacher while my babies were growing up so that I could work, but have a flexible schedule.
Unfortunately, just when I thought 'oh good, jobs for teachers are coming back.'
A charter school nearby, that employs home school teachers, closed.
I know taht next year whether I work full time or part time, God will help me in this area ofpain (leaving Lilly with someone). 
Thousands of women do it, so why can't I?
I think that there is so much I want to give Lilly and ways I want to raise her. So often I have seen daycare systems not fully take care of all their clients, and who can blame them.
Its an area I need to be praying more about.

Thank you for letting me share.


  1. Hannah, I found your blog through a blog hop.
    I must say this post touched home and I remember feeling this same way about the uncertainty of leaving my little guy. Keep praying about it and things will find a way of working out. I wanted to let you know that I nominated you for a Lieber award on my blog. When I picked yours to nominate you were not quite at 200 followers. I see you have passed that. Congrats! I'm still nominating you anyway, cause I love your blog!

    1. THanks Jessie for your encouraging words. It is scary to think that very soon I will have to go back to work. I mean I guess I still have 9 months, but it goes so quickly. Thank you for nominating me. You are so sweet!!

  2. Have you read "First Time Mom" by Leman? I am reading it and it talks a lot about this struggle! Praying for you!

    1. No I haven't. Is he the author of Sheet Music? If so, I love him. I will have to look into that. Much Love!!


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