This week I've still been doing the She Reads Truth devotional. We started prayer this week and I feel like I haven't really delved into it much. When I read the scriptures, I am reminded of how God wants to hear my prayers.
I have been constantly reminded this week about how blessed I am and how many people are struggling with health, loss, and brokenness. I forget sometimes to say that I am grateful even though I feel it in my heart. I am reminded often of the reason for prayer.
I was always one who liked to praised for everything!!! I mean everything including prayer. I always wanted someone to say, 'Wow, what a powerful prayer." I think that those are dangerous words, especially for a young Christian. It fuels that desire of wanting to be recognized, when clearly we are supposed to be humble individuals. Pride is such a thorn in my life. I realized a few years ago, just how much I require people's praise. It is so selfish and ugly. I hate to admit this, but I know that it is a part of healing. Even when we were first married I made my hubby write me notes on our whiteboard because I didn't get to see him much and I wanted validation from him. Even still I struggle with 'fishing for compliments' from him. Luckily he doesn't mind giving them :)
Prayer is such an intimate thing and because I struggle with recognition, I am careful of my motives when I pray. Am I praying with genuine intentions? Am I praying out of routine? am I praying so that others will look at me and be proud?
I think that praying out of routine has its positives and negatives, but I do it anyway. It is a good reminded to pray before meals and gives me the opportunity to pray for something that I may need to pray about that I haven't had time to pray for yet that day.
Anywho! I'm still working on this idea.
How do you pray? Or why do you pray?